A & R (Part-17: The Haunting Eyes)

(Continued… from previous part…!)

It was long weekend, and everyone was in a big rush to reach one’s home. Most of the people who came to Delhi NCR needed to get back to their home-town so that they could celebrate the festivals with them.  Ritvik did not have smartphone to hire app based taxis. He preferred the most convenient mode of commuting for him to Gurgaon was the Delhi Metro. He was at least familiar with it. He tried for DTC bus first but seeing the over-crowded buses, and jam-packed roads at peak hour, he decided to go by Delhi Metro.

It took around 2 hours for him to reach Gurgaon. The location to the given society apartments was still far away.  Luckily he got one shared cab close to the destination and it took another 40 minutes approximately to reach the Gold Souk apartments. Ritvik tried couple of times during his initial journey to contact Aniket, but all the time, his “phone was switched off”.

At the entrance, the security guard asked his identity and confirmed with the owner of the apartment 605, Block A,  before allowing him to enter the society.

When Ritvik reached the 6th Floor, apartment # 605, he got the assurance that he was at right place as he could hear loud music coming out of the closed doors. It was not very loud, but still loud enough to understand some “fun and party time with enthusiasm and high voltage vibes” being celebrated  inside.  He pressed the door bell gently.

A few moments later, the door opened with high volume of music coming out. A stranger welcomed him, “Hey Ritvik ! come in, we were waiting for you.” After allowing him entry, the guy who welcomed Ritvik closed the door and locked it.

It was an isle from the entrance to the living room cum hall which then was connected further to three bed rooms on three sides of the apartment. It was a big 3 BHK, spacious apartment properly furnished with all necessities and some luxuries of life to make it more comfortable. The ambiance was adjusted to mix the room light with slightly blue-shades from the ceiling, and light shades of moon-light from the ceiling corners. It was looking awesome. On one middle of the front wall was a big home-theater system and sound bars on either sides of front wall. The thundering volume spreading from it was giving it a “party feeling”.  There was a 52 inch LED (or perhaps Plasma) TV on one side, aligned with Sofa-sets which was muted but still kept on.

Ritvik looked around, and to his surprise, he noticed only four people, including himself in the apartment. All of them were carrying a glass, probably filled with Whisky. One of them was standing behind him as he just returned from the isle to entrance/exit.  The other two were in front of him.

“Hey Buddy ! Welcome to the party”, said one of them and moved forward to shake hands with Ritvik.  “I am Arnav, and he is Aditya.”, he gave a short introduction about himself and then pointed out the guy standing behind Ritvik on the isle side, who opened the doors for him. “You’ve probably already met him”, he introduced the third guy  standing on his side, without telling his name.

Ritvik looked at the third guy, with curiosity, trying to recognize him. He looked familiar. “Yes, we’ve met.”, said the third guy moving forward to Ritvik after placing his glass of wine on the table. He shook hands with Ritvik and continued, “Aditya and I work with your friend Aniket. We are in the same company.”

“Yeah !… I think, we’ve met earlier but please forgive me I am unable to recall. You did not tell your name”, asked Ritvik.

As soon as this guy held his hand in his hands, Ritvik noticed his firm grip. His palm was wide, and hard, indicating a regular hard-work. His body was toned, and perfectly in shape. Pumped up biceps and curves of his body were confirming a regular workout in gym.

“I’m sorry ! I forgot to introduce myself. I am Rizwan.”, said the third guy wearing a blue color shirt without a vest underneath, still holding Ritvik’s hand in his hand. “We met for the first time, when I visited your room [link opens in new Tab] to drop Aniket to you when he passed out during the last party.”

Now Ritivik remembered clearly, it was Rizwan that night, who brought Aniket home with the help of another person and whose penetrating eyes were making him uncomfortable with thorough scan of his body. It was not definitely a healthy or surprised look. It was not just a stare. It was way more than just a hungry look which scared him even after first glimpse of meeting his stranger. He felt those hungry eyes haunting him for days everywhere. Those hungry eyes were yet again in front of him, but a little less wide-open probably because of Alcohol he had consumed.

(To be continued…)

 

 

The Fire Within… (Concluding Part)

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He then got down a little and started licking my nipple. As he touched my nipple’s head with his tongue, my cock started leaking good amount of pre-cum.

His licking added the missing spices to the warmth of love. My super hard boner was now pulsating frequently and pushing hard on his belly. As the frequency increased, he started massaging it and my balls with his hands and his own cock alternatively. He did not stop, he kept ticking my nipple and playing with my nipple head with his tongue. I don’t know if there was increased level of sensitivity on my nipples but it became hard for me and my cock to tolerate it. I grabbed his head by his hair and pulled him away from my nipples.

Now he sat down on his knees, and picked up my cock in his hand, which was already leaking heavy amount of precum, and swallowed carefully the front portion of it in his mouth. He kept it there for a few moments, and tried with his tongue to swallow as if he is sucking something out of it. I could clearly see him gulping again and again. The pressure his tongue created while swallowing and gulping, and warmth of his mouth was something amazing. It was fascinating. I could not find any words to describe the exact feeling that I got from his actions.

It was not over yet. He opened his mouth wide and took some more portion of my hard shaft in his mouth. Now, almost half of my cock was in his mouth. But it was not even a second when he started pulling it out but with a mild pressure from his lips. It was not even fully out of his mouth when he tried to swallow it again… and again … and again. Slowly, he increased the pace of taking it in and out of his mouth. As he increased his speed, my balls started giving me a very powerful, sensational experience …something I cannot describe at all. He was also enjoying it.

I try to refrain any kind of artificial acts, even I try to control and hide my real emotions. But his swallowing my penis in and out of his mouth made me moan loudly. It was spontaneous, without any attempts from my side. As he slowly increased the pace and depth of swallowing my eyes got closed automatically, and I got myself totally disconnected with external world. All my attention was only on the extreme pleasure and excitement I was going through. I was on the cloud 9.

Suddenly I felt that he took 3/4th of my cock in his mouth and kept it there sucking and gulping. Perhaps, he might have been tired. He then took it out and licked it from the lower side till the fulcrum and then licked my balls. He took my cock in his hand and pulled the foreskin a little bit and then inserted his tongue inside the foreskin of my cock’s mouth. When his tongue touched the sensitive area (the hole) of my cock, I felt a twitching in my balls and small droplets of dense white liquid started coming out in small droplets. He licked it with his tongue.

Further movements of his tongue and touch of his tongue on inner skin of my penis became unbearable for me. I got intensified ejaculation within a few moments. My cock was throwing a huge amount of liquid and started dancing up and down like a wild beast. As soon as initial few warm drops of liquid fell on his cheek and chest, he quickly grabbed my cock with his hand and swallowed it again and this time he kept of sucking it as if it was a straw and he was gulping the cold drink through it. He kept swallowing the liquid for good 2 minutes till my cock stopped further movements. He then took it out, looked up at me and smiled. His face was speaking all about the kind of happiness and satisfaction he got through this. His shining white teeth and juicy pink lips were confirming his genuine heart-felt happiness. He got up, hugged me tightly and we kept embracing each other for good amount of time. I was also feeling satisfied, content and happy holding him in my arms.

After a few moments, we both took shower together, enjoyed exploring and cleaning each other’s bodies during shower. There were small rounds of kissing and smooching intermittently. I also felt okay to touch his penis and his balls during shower, to which I was very reluctant till now.

When we both came outside after finishing our bath, it was about to be 6:00 AM, and we both were feeling hungry.  After finishing the breakfast and tea, we decided to take a small nap as we were feeling sleepy after this long game started @ 2:00 AM.

After bath, we both were wearing clothes. I was wearing a round neck T-shirt, and underwear, and he was as usual, in his undies and vest. When we get laid on the bed, he took off all what he was wearing, and then turned back to me, removed the blankets covering me and then pulled off my shirt. It was surprising to me. Was the game which I started not over yet?  I was also surprised with the kind of energy levels that he have.

He then got on top of me, and started kissing me. His stiffened cock was rubbing against my thighs, and his warm breath and juicy lips were tickling around my cheek and neck. But I was now not so energetic now. Seeing no active participation from my side, he probably understood it and got down on the bed but continued kissing me passionately.

Slowly, he stopped his kissing sequence, and then move his hand inside my underwear and started rubbing and massaging my balls and cock. With his act, my cock started getting hard on once again. His mischievous intentions, burning sexual desires so soon after previous round of game between us and his impatience gave me a reason to smile. I was not sure, if he was going out of control because he got a chance today for the first time, with my consent and involvement after such a long wait of 6+ months since we were together or if he was really a sex freak?

He kept on massaging my cock and balls, which got in full erection within a few moments. Slowly my cock started leaking the precum from the tip, but he did not stop. He kept on rubbing it and kissing my chest, and sucking my nipples intermittently.

He then pulled off my underwear totally. As soon as he pulled the elastic band down, my erect cock popped out like a warrior on the field. He looked at it with a big smile, and kept staring for a moment and then he grabbed it quickly as he wanted to take control over it. His fingers were wrapped around it and his thumb started exploring the mouth of my penis which was wet with the natural lubricant, my pre-cum. He used his thumb to spread it on the round head of my penis. I could clearly see his own cock starting to leak similar liquid as he was completely naked too. His cock was popping up and down as it was enjoying what he was doing and was probably getting ready to take up next round of challenge with the “Warrior” on field.

He now moved down to my cock, raised it a little upside with his hand , and started licking my balls.  He kissed it,  licked it, and then took one of my balls in his mouth. He took it in and out a few times trying on both the balls alternatively.

Then he did all which he should not do.  It was too frequent for me. Second time, it was too intense and huge. He worked on me as a suction machine with varying forces and pressures and made me cum like a milk-vending machine of Mother Dairy. He made me plead for his mercy. The kind of wild treatment which I received from him on the bed can draw a rough analogy from following image.

He kept sucking me vigorously even after I had cum, but his continuous sucking did not let my cock loose its hard-on. There were multiple orgasms in next 40 minutes or so, and my cock started turning red with this hard-core sucker attached to it. I could not understand what was he enjoying in my cock, but he was not getting tired of what he was doing. His energy level did not dissipate, his sucking did not loose the power of pulling my juices out.

After he was satisfied with what he wanted to do, he finally left my poor cock alone. After drinking so much of man-milk, rich with protein, probably his hunger was satisfied. He moved up, embraced me tightly as an Anaconda would cover his prey. His thigh was covering my penis and he was using it to massage my balls and penis with slow motions, while he was busy kissing me.

Eventually, his movements and actions slowed down, we both felt a need to sleep. We slept in the same pose embracing each other.

I was now feeling a new kind of intensified personal bonding with him. I was blessed to get the same personal touch back and much more from him today, which he had stopped after we returned from my home on Durga Puja.

That’s all Folks ! 🙂 This was our first ever sexual intercourse.

First Crush (Part -2)

(Continued from previous post…)

As his constant movements were not allowing me to continue my work, I closed my laptop and moved to couch. There were two reasons, first, he couldn’t disturb me there as there was not enough space for two to accommodate. Second, I was feeling a bit tired and wanted to take a short nap, which was not possible with him being with me on the bed. This allowed me a chance to think on what he said about me.

I could not believe in what all he said about me. It was probably not all true. It might be a mix of his perception about me, his feelings for me and his wild imagination. He is also an emotional guy. When we are emotionally attached to an object (or a person), we usually tend to see the things in the color we prefer to see them, which may be far far away from the reality. Or, it may just be a case that he was flattering me to unearth some “elaborated” and “untold” truths of my past life.

But his flattering words about my “magnetic” personality gave me a reason to smile. I  normally don’t hear these kind of appreciations. It was embarrassing too. Someone told me that I was contagious. If that was true then it was like a virus, no good for anyone. I was being compared to a negative aspect of life. He might be honest, because usually frankness and truth are siblings. At least, in his expression of feelings for me, and his love for me, I could co-relate his words with his feelings for me and his affection for me. It was a very close match. That gave me a reason to dig deeper in my past, into my childhood and analyze it with a fresh perspective. I now need to see the past events from his perspective and find out if there was any truth in it.

“What happened? It’s okay if you are not comfortable in sharing your secrets with me. I cannot force you anyways.”, he jumped over me and shook me by my arm seeing no response from me for a while, and brought me out of all the thoughts I was lost in. I knew, it was not easy for him to leave me alone even for a moment, when he was around me.

I still did not say a thing. Neither did I open my eyes. It was my mistake. I forgot, that this may invite more troubles for me if I did not respond to him. Sometimes he behaves like a toddler. He wouldn’t leave me till I revert back to him or pay attention to him. He did exactly the same.

He started moving his butts up and down slowly, thereby rubbing his penis against my butts. It was already semi hard, which started getting harder with each movement. I couldn’t really understand why do I find his penis almost hard all the time, whenever I got a chance to feel it. I was also wondering if he is sexually hyper-active or a sex freak? Well… actually this should not be the case because, even though he is sexually aroused most of the times when he is with me, he refrained himself from crossing limits. He had been able to control his sex desires at the last moments, when even I lost all my control.

I turned on my side to get rid of him from this awkward pose.

And then he kissed me gently on my shoulder and whispered in my ears, “Hey Sexy ! Tell me naaa….  who was your first Crush? How was your first love experience? I want to know where do I stand in your life.”

His last words touched me deeply. His tone had turned into a serious note and lost its jovial nature while putting these words. It was not difficult to understand that probably  he was troubled with something while putting these words.

I grabbed his hand in my hand, which was wrapped around my chest, and then turned to him. He welcomed my move with a smile, but this time, it was fading away.  I looked into his eyes, and kissed him passionately, and then said, “Darling ! You are my only love of life so far. You are my first and the only crush. I am deeply in love with you.”

And, I noticed his glittering smile was back. His eyes started shining with the same confidence and naughtiness.

He kissed me back, hugged me tight, and said, “… but what about girls… I still want to hear all your childhood stories. I want to be part of your that life too.”

Don’t Fuel the Fire ! Ever!! (Concluding Part)

(Continued from previous post…)

I don’t know what came to my mind, but I suddenly jumped over him and sat over his crotch. His eyes started shining. He did not wait for another moment to hug me and embraced me tightly in his arms. His head was in my arms, and his juicy lips had started exploring and enjoying my chest. I was feeling his warm breaths on my chest when he exhaled. Within a moment, there was some hardness and some slight movements in my comfortable seat and I could feel his boner growing very fast. Now, that really made me wonder that how magical it was to have such bone-stiffness in a boner that does not have a bone at all.

I was already feeling his stiff, hard boner under my ass. He grabbed me from my waste and part of my hips, and started moving me a little forward and backward, that further massaged his rock-hard penis. During all this time, he was continually kissing my chest and nipples passionately. Slowly he adjusted me to completely sit on his super hard boner which was now getting massaged with my sliding movements. His kisses and embracing also made my penis hard. All of sudden he became wild and pulled my nipple through his lips and started nibbling it and twisting it. “Aahhh..!“… only this came out of my mouth in mild voice, and instantly my penis got fully erect and super hard. Even then he did not leave my nipple and continued sucking, and nibbling it. I could feel it that my penis had started leaking pre-cum heavily. I don’t really understand, what was it that he was sucking so hard from my (dry) nipples, but I am sure, if he continued doing it, it will surely start delivering him what he wanted.

I grabbed his hair and tried to pull him away but he did not leave my nipple, rather it got more stretched in my attempt to pull his head away from me. To eliminate the stretching and the pain, I pressed his head on my chest but that could not stop him from what he was doing.

Suddenly I felt his hand, which was embracing my waist and was pushing me to move forward and backward till now, enter inside my underwear from backside, and then he started squeezing my butts and caress the ass-cheeks. Next I felt, his hands pulling down my underwear from the backside and uncovering my butts completely. His both hands were now freely moving, massaging and squeezing my both the ass-cheeks. With this, his act of sucking my nipples became wild. He was working on a single nipple for such a long time, and the pain was getting out of my bearable limits. I cried foul and my eyes became teary with pain. I said to him,”Stop it! It is hurting me.“

He suddenly released my nipple. The area around it was all turned red, due to excessive sucking and forces he applied on it. It was paining a lot. The nipple head was already stretched and pointing out. He also noticed it, and then gently kissed on it. My nipples which were already over-sensitive, now had lost all sensitivity. I could not feel touch of his lips when he kissed on it. I sat down back on his thighs, over his crotch. It was very uncomfortable as his penis had turned to a real boner, and it was really stiff with full hard-on. I pulled up my underwear back and got down to the bed.

He did not leave me alone. He grabbed me from my nipple, which he had already tortured a lot but could not find it “working”, squeezed it mildly once again, and then kissed me.

I don’t know what was going in his mind, but it looked as if he was ready to break all the barriers today. His mischievous smile was indicating that he has something in his mind which he was following up. That scared me. Would it be end of my virginity today?

While kissing, he kept rubbing my nipple with his thumb. Strange enough, my nipple which had lost all the sensitivity a little while ago, was now again getting it back. It may be the effect of his rubbing, mild squeezing that might have helped to resume the blood circulation in that area but now his rubbing the nipple head was acknowledged by my nipple once again and my penis started responding to these signals.

He then moved his attention to second nipple, and started playing with it, but mildly this time with special care to it so that I did not feel that level of pain. It was very stimulating to me and caused quick hard-on of my boner.

He kept doing it for a while and used his hand to massage my belly while his lips were busy with my nipple. Then he moved his hand a bit below and gave two squeezes to my boner and balls. His hand would have got wet with pre-cum leaking from my underwear.

He then moved down to belly. He knew the art of making someone plead for mercy. What he did there was something really beyond my capability. He kept kissing and licking there around my belly button, in different styles. His kisses were not only causing tickling but also were stimulating me sexually.

It was getting harder for me to bear this all, but he was not ready to leave me or show any kind of mercy on me. He did not touch my penis again, and it was already leaking a load full of pre-cum and was desperate in getting a help to unload it. He just kept on kissing, sucking, licking my belly button and the area around it.

He gave me a short break, stood up and then pulled his underwear down completely. He was standing there all naked and then came back on the bed in between my legs around him. This act gave me shivers, and nervousness was clearly visible from my expressions.

Next he did exactly, what I was afraid of. He grabbed my underwear from both the sides of my waist, and pulled up the elastic belt to take it down. I was so horrified, that I instantly grabbed his hands, and nodded my head to request him not to proceed further.

He looked at me for a moment, gave me a cute smile and then left my underwear belt gently, and sat in between my legs spread around him. He then picked up my hand and kissed gently on the fingers.

And then he laid down over me, and whispered “My little Prince! Don’t worry. I Love You. I Love You. I Love You.”, and kissed me gently once again.

Don’t Fuel the Fire ! Ever!! (Part-1)

It was hard, and erect when I opened my eyes.

I am seeing a lot frequent morning erections now a days, almost everyday. I don’t know if it is because of better and soothing climate conditions in this monsoon season, or is it because of his body touching mine all the time and if that sensational touch of the body adds fuel to the fire.

He has made it a habit of embracing me all the time when we sleep. Even if we sleep in opposite sides, he makes sure that his body is constantly touching mine. I quite don’t understand if he really sleeps even for a single moment in whole night because it seems to me like he just keeps on feeling my body or keeps exploring it with his hands and skin. If, by any chance, there is a moment when our skins are not in direct contact, it is hardly a matter of 30 seconds and I start feeling his touch once again, most of the times, even more intensely.

I opened my eyes, adjusted the tent popping-out of my underwear, and then looked on my right side. It was a beautiful view of his silky smooth fair body which was illuminated by the morning sun-shine filtered through the window. His eyes were closed. I felt a strong urge to touch his body, and explore every inch of his shiny, glorious, smooth body with my hands. I don’t know if it was a result of already high sexual-hormone levels in me that were provoking me or if it was the effect of soothing and stimulating monsoon that was adding fuel to fire and giving me sexual arousal, but definitely the sensational touch of his body had a big role to stimulate my senses.

I turned towards him, and started playing around his left nipple. A smile started spreading on his cute face , as soon as my fingers started exploring his chest. He then slowly opened his eyes. I also noticed movements in his underwear where he moved his hand to control it. It was an instant reaction.

My act was probably unexpected surprize to him.He looked into my eyes with his attractive smile on his face. I grabbed his cute face in my hands and kissed him gently on his cheeks, and told him, “I Love you. Yes, I love you a lot“.

A few of my kind readers and online friends have suggested me that I am doing injustice to him, may be unknowingly. It has always been a one-one sided love for him so far. He hardly received his share of love and affection from me. Who don’t like to be pampered, cared and loved? He might also be feeling emptiness and might be quenching of his share of love from you. At times, it is also important to show your love and affection through your actions, which adds to the strength of the relationship and bonding between the two.

I agree with their advice. Similar thoughts were running in my mind too for a long time when he hinted me similar things in one of our discussions, discussed in this event, when he had said,

“….. I have always respected your will and your preferences over and above my needs and satisfaction. That’s why I could not proceed further last night even though I was sexually aroused, super horny and needed much more to satisfy my sexual needs.….”

It was not a favor to him. After a recent major incident in my life, (which I am not comfortable in sharing with anyone, not even with my Diary), I have been feeling deeply attached to him and strongly in love with him. He has proved himself to be my strength in my weak moments. He had shown what “Love” really means to him. And now I know, it is not just physical thing, but a true love kind of thing. This gave me a reason and responsibility of acknowledging his love and feelings for me and to surrender all my “if’s and but’s” in front of his love.

I was also feeling horny.  I glimpsed on his chest. His pink nipples appeared so juicy to me, and were giving me a direct invitation. His fair smooth body was all a perfect package complementing his inner beauty.

It was as perfect as his inner beauty, and love for me. I was feeling attracted to him and also deeply attached to him. His shiny beauty was fading away my discretionary capabilities.

(To be continued… Stay tuned for Concluding part (coming up shortly))

Love…Why?

He was trying to wake me up for past half an hour or so. But I wanted to enjoy some more time sleeping. It was Holiday and I had some extra time for this leisure activity. After it rained last night, the climate was also very pleasant and soothing, perfectly suitable for a nap-time.

When he saw his attempts failing, his tricky mind started playing tricks. I haven’t seen any of his tricks failing yet because he knows in and out of me very well. He understands my Physics, Chemistry and Psychology, and masters the art of utilizing it the best way to find the desired outputs.

He pulled me up on his chest. I moved onto him, a bit reluctantly. Half of my energy was wasted in moving.. you know it guys… how tough and big task it becomes when you want to sleep and are already feeling laziness for doing anything. But it was worth it. I was rewarded with a more comfortable, sensual and emotionally satisfying sleep position now.  Slowly, he entered his hand inside my T-shirt and started massaging my back, caressing it.

He kept on doing it with a slow pace, all over my back. It was a very soothing effect, and exciting too. There was no reason for me to get lost in my dreams as his moving hands, sensual touch of his warm body, and his hugging was constantly pulling me out of the dreamland.

Suddenly, he kissed me on my neck, and said in a mild loving tone, “Get up baby! The Tea is waiting for us for a long time.“, and with this, one of his hands moved down to my hips and he gave it a gentle squeeze on one side. I was not feeling sleepy and was not sexually aroused. I was feeling calm, and cozy and was enjoying it. But at the same time, I did not want to make him suffer for me. I knew, he would also not take anything without me when we are together. Anyways, his trick had worked perfectly and I was now far away from returning back to my dreams. I raised my head up, trying to get up. He grabbed my head in his hands, and gave me a Good Morning kiss on my lips.

I got down from him, back to my bed, next to him. I was still “planning” to take a little more time before finally leaving the bed, and he probably guessed what my intentions were. He grabbed me in his grip tightly, uncovered my chest and then his culprit hands started paying with my nipple. Almost all the sensitive area of my body were now in direct touch with his skin from chest to down below. Seeing no positive response from me to get up, it was a direct attempt to seduce me and make me sexually aroused, and he was succeeding in this too.

Soon after his finger tip caressed top my my nipple head, and he moved it up and down and then gave it a mild pinch, my crotch had already started reacting strongly to his actions. Seeing the conditions going out of my control, I made a failed attempt to stop this encroachment on my sensitive area. I tried to block his hand and remove it from the war-zone, but he was already prepared to deal with all such attempts from me. He tightened his grip so that even I could not move my hand, and also started moving his leg up and down to rub my thighs and massage my hardening crotch.

His hand was already able to sense my raising heart beats and he could clearly feel my increased breathing pace. Seeing this response from my body, his movements on my thigh became more violent and started penetrating deeper, upto head of my penis now. I knew, where it was all heading too.

He pulled off my T-Shirt, hugged me tightly and then kissed me. I did not react, as my organs were already responding appropriately.

Instead of trying to wake me up, he also hugged me tight and stopped all his actions except his leg movements. He rested his head on my shoulder and closed his eyes. His breath falling on my neck was giving me a tickling sensation. His breathing pace also started slowing down. The sensual up and down movements of his thigh hitting my crotch were also slowed down, but he continued doing that. I believe, he was also enjoying touch of my thighs and crotch. We kept lying in that pose, hugging each other, for an unknown time.

After sometime, I was just about to sleep back, when he got on top of me, kissed on my neck and said, “Hey Sexy! Don’t test my patience… you better get up now.“. It was a sincere and an honest request, and a warning to me. I could understand how much he would have been controlling his wild imaginations and actions just not to let me feel bad about his act. I turned back to him, and saw his smiling sexy face, and attractive eyes looking at me. He was caressing my hair, gently moving his fingers on my head. This time, I had no option except to follow his suggestion cum ultimatum.

I kissed him back on his cute smiling face, and said, “Okay!“. After we got up, I went to loo, came back in 10 minutes and saw, he was ready with fresh Tea and snacks for us.  When we finished the tea and snacks, I relaxed myself in a more comfortable sitting pose. He also laid down resting his head on my lap.

I looked at him. I found his glorious, shiny body, and cute face, that could be center of attraction for any eyes. His eyes were closed.  My hand reached his face, and started pampering him. He smiled, with his eyes closed, but did not move.

All of sudden, my thought process became a bit philosophical in nature. I was feeling good to look at his body, and was feeling happy and fulfilled seeing him lying with me. The feeling of him being mine was enough to make me feel “Content” and satisfied. I kept looking at him, enjoying the view. Slowly, my attention moved to his face, and then to his juicy pink lips. I moved my index finger over his lips.

When it reached the middle of his lips, he first kissed it and then swallowed it, and then continued sucking it without opening his eyes. Not sure, if he was enjoying something in his fantasies with his eyes closed, or the sweet and salty taste of snacks we had a little while ago, by sucking my fingers. But his continued prolonged sucking, which was getting deeper and deeper to cover whole length of my finger now made me laugh at his act and also made me think that there ought to be something beyond the taste of snacks.

After a few moments, when he did not stop doing this, I tried pulling my finger out, but he prevented me by grabbing my hand in his hands and continued sucking it more passionately.  I was now sure that he was playing some “dirty games” in his mind. To confirm my own understanding I looked at his crotch. It was hard, erect and pulsating frequently.

I moved my other hand over his chest, and then to his belly. And I noticed, a sudden jump of his crotch in his underwear as soon as my hand touched his body. But he still did not open his eyes.

I am concerned that I am not able to fulfill his deep sexual desires physically, and not able to satisfy his sexual needs either. I keep him starving of his sexual needs. I could not be so cruel to him to not to let him satisfy himself even in his fantasies. So, I decided to help him now. I moved my hand from his belly, a bit down to his crotch and gave it a small squeeze.

As my hand touched his crotch area (through his underwear), his sucking and all other movements stopped. He became a statue, except that his breathing pace was increased  many folds and his penis became rock-hard instantly and started swelling in my hand itself. The force of his penis was pushing my hand up again and again. In sheer embarrassment, I moved my hand away from his penis.

After moving away my hands, he did not react or force me to do it again. He even did not open his eyes. Rather, he continued what he was doing; sucking my finger once again. His now fully erect penis, which was jumping up intermittently was clearly showing his level of excitement and sexual arousal. But now he was servicing his little champ (penis) with his second hand and trying to adjust it every now and then. I bent forward, and kissed on his forehead and said “Enough now!” and started pulling out my finger. This time, he opened up his eyes, looked into my eyes, and slowly let my finger come out of his mouth.

And finally, he grabbed my face in his hands, pulled me towards him and kissed on my lips,and said, “I love you“.

Since then, there are plenty of questions coming to my mind, for which I want to find satisfactory answers. It has been few days to this incident but I haven’t found answers to my questions yet to satisfy my quest.

I know that he loves me, and for him, it is unconditional love too without imposing any restrictions on me. But I am not able to understand if this is his true love and unconditional love for me, why does he feel sexually aroused and want to have sex with me?

Although he is putting a lot of hard efforts in controlling himself and restricting his feelings and his sex desires too, knowing that I may not like him if he does it to me, but why in the first place, he want it (my body) over me? Is it not true, however a remote possibility could it be, that he likes me because of my body, my physical appearance?

I believe, and cannot explain it exactly why, but I have strong reasons for me to believe in it that he has given me a preference over his sexual desires. I also understand that he may have a higher level of sexual needs and may be sexually more active and aggressive than what I am, will it be a good idea for both of us to move forward? I mean, although I am not so restrictive now and don’t stop him touching my body most of the time, but even then it cannot give him full sexual satisfaction (I believe so).

Am I not being cruel on my part to refrain him from his basic needs or from enjoying his life? At times, even I have experienced it, that when I am in sexually agitating moods, that thing doesn’t go off my mind easily and all my attention, my thoughts are focused on that thing. I am making him do it (sexual stimulation/arousal) and then snatch the rights of joy from him on almost daily basis. I have started feeling guilty and feeling of being cruel to his generous nature.  I am not able to reciprocate even a fraction of love, care and affection I am getting from him. I am feeling indebted to him, his love and affection for me. And that is making him a more respectable, adorable, affectionate figure for me, to whom I am feeling indebted for my inability to meet his needs.

The question now puzzling me is, “he loves me…alright, but Why?”

I have asked this question to him, several times, and he tried his best to explain it to me. Even some of my good online friends and readers also added their valuable suggestions on this thread from their past life experiences, but it could not answer my basic question – “Love… Why?” in the language that I can understand. Probably, the definition of true love for me is very impractical, unrealistic and far away from human-world.

I am not doubting his love for me. There is no question of putting him in suspicion-zone for his affectionate love, and care for me, which I can feel.

I have surrendered to him (almost 90%). No major objections or questions from my side now on what he is doing with me or my body. I changed myself to such a great extent that even I don’t believe that I could have taken such a bold step.It altogether is different story that now even he has changed himself a lot and has not crossed any limits that could make me feel uneasy, or embarrassed. But somehow, may be because of my (incomplete, impractical and different) understanding of life, and values that I believe in, probably I want to hear something else… in the language, which probably he might not speak.

But even then… I will keep trying to figure out the answer… Let’s see how… and when !