(Continued from previous post, A Hard-on Experience…)
After coming out of bathroom, I started feeling guilty. Guilty of being caught red-handed in some sort of “unknown” crime. I tried to calm down myself with deep breathing exercise. After couple of minutes, I went back in. He was still sitting there holding that stool with his hands (probably for a support) under the running water of the shower. He was still looking downwards. I picked up his towel, turned the water off and started drying him with his towel.
To divert the attention I changed the topic and asked him if he is feeling any better after the bath. I then helped him stand up from stool and wrapped the towel around his waist. He was holding the wall with one hand and me (from my shoulder) from the other hand for support. He tried to pull off his wet underwear but it could not go below his thighs as he started loosing balance. I bent a bit up to his waist and inserted my hands under his towel and pulled down his underwear to his ankles, and then helped him step in to new underwear.
When I was about to turn back to go to bathroom, after bringing him back to his bed, he held my hand and said, “I’m sorry.” I looked back at him and wanted to say, “It’s alright” but before I could say something, he continued, “I know I have been a jerk and offended you but believe me it was not my intention. I lost my control. I love you and have been loving you since the first day. Please forgive me this time. Believe me, my love has no flaws and is very pure. Would you still be angry if I happened to be a girl? Is it my fault that I am a man and desperately in love with you?“. His eyes were all teary and he was looking very honest to express his feelings.
His sincere questions pierced me deeply. I knew and have seen him taking special care of me many times. I have noticed him paying attention to my likes and dislikes very minutely and making all his efforts to do whatever makes me happy and whatever I like. I have felt him being in love with me. Could he be right? Would I be angry if he would be “She”? I know, before this incident I liked his company a lot and he did everything to make me feel happy. I had a soft-corner for him in my heart.
Honestly speaking, I realized that perhaps he is correct. I would not have even given it a thought if a girl would have done something similar to me. Rather, this is something very similar to I fantasize most of the times. This was part of my erotic fantasies and foreplay that I mostly see during my masturbation except that it is being done by girl. Just in case, if he was a girl, I would have been proud of my being man and man-hood and would have been boasting about this incident with my close friend.
This realization left me with more guilty feeling of being unfair to him. Guilty of being harsh, and very hard to such a loving person. Everyone may feel weak at some moments and that is when our “love” and “friends” come forward to support us. Slowly these thoughts started covering my head from all possible directions and I could not tolerate any further pressure and guilty feeling.
I leaned on him, and kissed gently on his cheeks and said, “Don’t worry about it. You need not be sorry“, and then embraced him tightly in my arms.
I was feeling much better now.